When In Doubt

I was driving to Calinan yesterday afternoon at around 4:30, all sad and confused, when I was able to witness a spectacular view of the Mt. Apo and some beautiful evergreen rice paddies that lay below. I was feeling the moment while listening to U2's "where the streets have no name," on my iPod and lo! and behold! I had an epiphany - a moment of clarity! Suddenly I knew the answer to my three week old dilemma. I made a mental note to myself that whenever faced with seemingly futile mental puzzles, I would take a detour from my usual routine, and try to find answers from a different perspective - literally speaking. I LOVE MOTHER EARTH! She has her way of making herself heard by us stubborn mortals.

PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY, PLEASE!

I'm such an insomniac!
Well, I'm not sure if that's the perfect word for my disposition. Its not that I can't sleep, its more like I don't want to. I'd sit around my computer and smoke a zillion cigarettes, and already its 2am! I've been so out of it lately that my face is starting to do crazy things in protest!
(-) I've developed a new breed of eyebags that one could use for storing what-nots like loose change or stash smoke-able weed.
(-) My nose and forehead are always shiny and slick with oil that I just scrape off of my face in the morning to fry eggs.
This is so bad, but feels so good!
(+) Well, not all bad. At least I enjoy a few minutes of zit killing infront of the mirror once every so often. (Kadiri!!!)
I think I'm hooked. I don't know what to do. I swoon in delight just sitting around doing nothing and listening to music, and feeling tired but resisting the natural urge to sleep. Its so addictive! I don't quite understand the feeling, being that I'm new at this, but maybe when I've arranged a few words to articulate this novel emotion, I'd write another one of these bloggy things.